Initiation, NC-17 (April 4, 2010)

[daria_103]

Great fic, it was a really interesting take on the two of them and where they stood at that point with each other. I can be a bit of a sucker for romance but I also love when writers include all the realistic, awkwardness that comes with losing your virginity and you captured that perfectly, along with the added intensness of it being Lex she was losing it to at a very crazy point in both their lives.

[asharnanae]

I liked the story very much, it was an interesting play on how they could get together.

[somethingeasy]

Thank heavens someone was brave enough to say so! I thought you'd all gone blind!

I tried to stick with brutal honesty in my review, but my ninjas threatened to evicerate me unless I said something nice. So I decided to make a quick comment filled with false praise. The comments are completely random and generic statements of admiration, so don't take them too seriously, Nonky. erm... except for the statement at the end that's asking for another update soon. THAT is the only genuine, serious statement in the whole review.

Under ninja coercion

This was an amazing fic! It was a very original take on an intriguing old idea of ‘deflowering’. I LOVED how this ‘you’re a virgin, oh wait, not so much anymore!’ fic idea was tailor-made for Chlex, so now I can’t imagine ANY other way that Lex and Chloe would react in such a scenario. I loved how there were elements of extreme fear, cruelty, harshness, anger, angst, anxiety and extreme awkwardness mixed in with the smutty sweetness of it all. It was a perfect deflowering fic!

He kissed her, just to shut her up. Anyone else and she would have laughed, but Lex made it seem like an action real people might do in a public hallway in the face of the hysterical ranting of her mounting paranoia. He just grabbed he face and stuck his tongue where the noise originated.

ROTFL! First of all, I loved the beginning, outlining how Chloe is congratulating herself that she’s not, not the type of person who throws tantrums. She’s a mature, intelligent woman who is wise and responsible beyond her years, and she does NOT throw hissy-fits… therefore she simply cannot be throwing a hissy fit at Lex Luthor right now, because that’s clearly out of character for her, LOL! I loved Chloe-logic… especially when it’s being twisted in a way that doesn’t fool anyone, not even herself, ROTFL!

On top of seeing Chloe unsuccessfully denying her tantrum, it was amazing and incredible seeing the method that Lex used to shut her up. I loved, LOVED the way that the description of Lex’s tongue in Chloe’s mouth was described in harsh terms as a intrusion and violation as much as a damned good kiss. I honestly didn’t know whether Chloe was going to react with melting at the knees and kissing him back… or reflexively kneeing him in the groin for the rude, forced push into her mouth, LOL!

“My place, your place, a hotel,” he rattled off. “Unless you say no, I'll be inside you very soon.”

It wasn't a threat. Her virginity had been threatened before, and her stomach hadn't given a little leap of excitement then. It wasn't no, but she couldn't be somewhere real and familiar while they did this. Chloe would have to deny this later, to herself maybe, and to Lionel if he found out.

Lex’s words were blunt and abrupt to the point of almost being crass and vulgar. So how the heck did it sound so hot?! His choice of words fit in perfectly with the tone being created for this sexual encounter, making it hard, harsh and threatening more than romantic. Yet, taking all the softness away from the smut still made it so irresistibly thrilling and hot! I loved it, and I can see that Chloe was responding positively to it as well… despite how Lex’s bluntness might have sent a thread of anxiety through her.

He drove them to the hotel dangerously, one hand to steering wheel, the other alternating between shifting gears and holding her wrist. Lex didn't look at her the whole way there. He held her hand more gently while they were in the lobby, then in the room he yanked her clothes off. She was on her back on the bed, shivering, by the time she caught up to his nudity. He wasn't huge, but he didn't have to be when she wasn't very tall. She'd spent too much time in a chair, being a bookworm. Bare muscles were intimidating, especially the sweaty places that formed when he lay on top of her.

That was brilliant, Nonky! Even Lex’s naked form sounds hard and threatening rather than bare and vulnerable. It was amazing reading a smut scene which doesn’t have any overt violence in it, but all the suggested violence is in the innate nature of first-time sex itself.

Lex was immune to surprise, because he rolled back and got a condom with absolute calm. She trembled as he came back, and he frowned at her. “Just don't scream like I'm killing you,” he smiled, arching his signature eyebrow. “It's a nice hotel.”

Chloe clutched the blankets to her chest, her face going pale. She knew he was joking. Lex wasn’t cruel to women he dated. Most of them nearly killed him trying to hold on to him, and he was the one who ended up in the hospital.

“Now you’re imagining horrible things,” Lex frowned. “I shouldn’t have teased you.”

ROTFL! No, you really shouldn’t have, you stupid bastard asshole! But, once again, it fits in with the tone that’s being built up, showing how losing one’s virginity is usually always damned scary, even if you’re ready for it and desperately want to have sex then and there.

His hand held under her chin, fingers stroking over the constellation of moles on her cheek. “You’re very pretty, Chloe. It’s a very nice, uncontrived attractiveness that keeps you outside of any blonde stereotypes. I’ve thought so for a long time but it seemed inappropriate to say so. Under the circumstances, I think you might forgive the lapse.”

His blue eyes were sending warmth over her skin, making Chloe feel charmed even as she noticed he’d avoided any talk of feelings. He had complimented her, expertly, but he hadn’t said anything that obligated either one of them to do this again. She felt safer immediately. Lex wasn’t lying to her or exaggerating anything for her benefit.

heee! Even the ‘sweet compliments’ during the foreplay were more like calculated assessments rather than outpouring of emotion. And the fun thing was that Chloe preferred this calculated compliment, where anything more intense, deep or heartfelt would have made her run in panic. Brilliant!

He came back to lie on top of her, moving slowly and deliberately. Chloe was somewhat frozen, fighting a maidenly resistance to being dominated, no matter how gently and politely Lex was going about it. He slid his hands under her hips, steadying her as she couldn’t quite contain a nervous arch of her back. There was a small skirmish over where her knees should be, then he was notched in the wet, pulsing spot that ached vulnerably.

Seriously, I loved, LOVED the careful, brilliant and amazing choice of words being used to set the tone for the smut. Words like skirmish and resistance and domination… words that make it clear how sex can be a battle as much as an intimate bonding experience between two people.

Holding me still, she thought. Keeping me where he wants me.

Chloe knew she was panicking in a distant part of her brain, but her body reacted to the fear. She had always wondered what rich people did, how they thought, where their limits were located compared to the average person. It was overly simple to think there was a bratty pettiness to all of Lex’s actions, but it wasn’t altruism driving him. He used his power over people, and she had lain down and let him do exactly that. It might have been a huge mistake.

The conflict of the scene is being further illustrated by Chloe’s fight or flight response to the actual penetration. It’s not a violation, or a forced intrusion at all… but it’s still described as something violent and scary. I love how the power-play figures into a large part of it all… where Chloe is being forced to admit that there’s some amount of domination and submission inherent in the act of sex… and in this instance, Lex is the more experienced player and therefore at the advantage from the very beginning.

She moaned, and twisted her head away before he could get her hair out of her face. “Chloe? Chloe, we can stop. We should stop,” he gasped softly.

She nodded. He needed to stop being huge and on top of her. He needed to be not so hot and everywhere. It wasn't fair to her. He knew she was a virgin until a few minutes ago, and shouldn't that get her a little mercy. He started to withdraw and she realized he was a Luthor – not built for mercy either physically or emotionally.

This was perfect, Nonky. Just when it was getting violent, scary and painful to the point of being slightly uncomfortable for the reader, Lex shows his sweet gentleness… proving that a good portion of the force, domination and violence was only in Chloe’s paranoid perception. Lex was actually taking pains to make this good for Chloe, and make sure that he wasn’t making the situation unduly uncomfortable for her. He was trying to be as diffident as was possible… and he is doing a pretty good job considering the circumstances.

“No, sweetheart, that's going to burn like hell. You're too tight.”

He spoke quickly, but his hands were on a delay. She was already halfway down on him when he grabbed her by the waist. She rushed to beat him, choking as the jolt to her pussy made her queasy. She couldn't let him have all of this for himself. On top was supposed to work better for women.

“Jesus, you'll need stitches,” Lex muttered, his forehead crinkled into lines carved out of tension. “Slow down. What are you trying to prove?”

ROTFL! Brilliant! Up till now we’ve only being seeing how the virginity factor was making this terrible for Chloe… but I never considered how Lex would also find it awkward, cumbersome and scary to take a virgin out of her maiden voyage. He’s used to sexually experiences partners who can undoubtedly take an adequate amount of exciting roughness, albeit the sex is undoubtedly stale, shallow and unsatisfying… but at least he doesn’t have to be extraordinarily patient and super-careful during such encounters. Chloe must be really trying his patience and staying power. I’m sure the ‘tightness’ doesn’t completely compensate for the other inconveniences of bedding a virgin.

Power was difficult, Lex thought. It was even more difficult to realize power came and went without warning. He could understand Chloe’s frustrated desire to tame it, use it somehow. It was there in her, but it was complemented by morality and optimism. She would probably never be comfortable with the things she was capable of doing. He didn’t know anyone utterly comfortable with their power who wasn’t also a monster.

I loved this! This section made it clear the high regard that Lex has for Chloe. Not only as a beautiful, attractive, ‘natural’ body to appreciate… but also as an amazing, admirable person. He genuinely cares for her… if not outright loves her That’s quite clear!

“Hold on,” he told her, pulling her arms around his neck. “And go slowly. Come down on exhales, and lift up when you breathe in. Try to relax.”

Her body spasmed as if on cue, clenching on his cock and reminding Lex the last thing he should do with Chloe was presume to tell her what to do. She’d inevitably disobey magnificently.

LOL! Poor Lex. He not only has to guide a virgin to her orgasm, but he has to guide stubborn, pride-filled, inquisitive Chloe Sullivan to her orgasm… all this without her rebelling against him, LOL! I can see he’s near to gritting his teeth in annoyance… and yet I also believe he’s swooning at her spirited, rebellious nature at the same time too, LOL!

He helped her move, following her body up and down with firm palms on her sides. Chloe closed her eyes and negotiated the width of him. She wasn't brave enough to push all the way down on him, nor could she risk sliding too high on his shaft and losing him. She was probably only working the middle of his cock, rubbing a few inches raw. Lex was regarding her with heavy eyelids, but he wasn’t seething with passion. She obviously had to do more. Her hips loosened up and she tried bouncing on her knees. The friction was sore but she knew it was finally building steadily.

“Chloe, you're hurting yourself,” he mumbled, cupping her chin.

“You're hurting me,” she argued. “Show me what to do!'”

heee! They’re getting into some sort of a rhythm here, and yet the awkwardness is still clear. I thought it was brilliant, Nonky, that you didn’t have them fall magically into sync within moments of penetration. Chloe’s inexperience is clear for all to see… and her raw enthusiasm and determination to prove herself are working against her. It’s a perfect account of a Chlex virgin smut scene.

He was scared for me, she realized. The morgue field trip wasn't about making me feel worse – he was trying to express concern.

She leaned in and kissed him, very softly. He caught his breath and let it out in a slow tickle over her cheek, then he was clutching her to him so tightly she couldn't keep moving on him. Lex was digging his fingers into her hips as she squirmed, but he patiently settled into the long, deep intimacy. He was giving her all of him, and Chloe felt filled. She would die if she had to move, the angle would rip her up. His arms tensed, but he didn’t rush her back to moving.

oh wow! This was beautiful, Nonky. The semi-ugly, awkward start made the readers really appreciate the closeness, intimacy and ‘syncing up’ all the better when it finally happened. I don’t think I’ve cheered so much to see Lex and Chloe connecting and bonding over sex, until I saw how difficult it was for them to get to this bonding stage after all the violence and awkwardness.

“Let me down,” she murmured.

He eased them to their sides, shifting them into an easy missionary position. Chloe's fingers grazed down his chest to hug him. Her eyes opened to look at the flicks of tendons in his neck. He propped up on his elbows and stared deeply. She had never seen anyone with that look. Hot, complex and blazingly simple, she interpreted it immediately. He didn't just want to fuck her, not just that. He wanted to make her come.

Lex's hands rolled into fists on the mattress, and pushed in closer against her ribs. She blushed in odd places, a pink suffusing her belly and arms in addition to the colour in her cheeks and chest. Compared to her typical independence, her little hands pulling at him were endearing. She scrubbed her breasts hard on him and learned him with steady progress. He knew he’d hurt her at first but he fit very nicely in her now. A few more times and Chloe would take him easily from any position. She was genuinely open to things, her boldness holding up under his first heavy thrust.

This was brilliant and amazing! I loved that it was only at almost the end of the sex that Lex was finally able to earn Chloe’s complete, open trust. It was only after he proved himself when she believed that he could be trusted enough to submit to… and it was ok to have his body pinning hers down, submitting to him… that he definitely wouldn’t (deliberately) hurt her.

I can see that Lex was also blown away by the trust that was exhibited specifically because he had to work hard to earn it. He knew that Chloe was freaked out at the beginning, and that she wanted to be the one in charge at first, even though HE was clearly the more experienced partner between the two. Having Chloe giving up control to him was a sign of trust that touched him deeply. I loved that!

heee! And it was gratifying to see that Lex already had it in his head that he needs wants to have sex with Chloe again and again… several times. He’s already noted how well her body fits against his. I wonder how much longer before he realizes how beautifully and perfectly her mind, personality and life fits besides his as well, LOL!

She had seen it in movies, but the motion was surprisingly hard with trembling limbs. Chloe linked her ankles and hissed at the mingled soreness and heat. Her whole body felt it. Even her toes were curling and dragging over his lower back. She clawed at Lex restlessly.

“I don’t know how to move like this.”

“Yes, you do,” he said, nipping along her neck.

heee! I never thought about this, but so many fics make it sound so natural and easy for Chloe to link her legs over Lex’s shoulders and all other kinds of impossible positions, quite often during her very first time with him. It’s so much more realistic and plausible imagining that Chloe actually had actual difficulty adjusting her body into new, unfamiliar positions… although I don’t doubt that she would try… and succeed.

But it was wonderful seeing Chloe’s trust demonstrated by her admission that she wasn’t sure that she could actually manage this position… and it was heartwarming hearing Lex’s warm, confident reassurance that she WILL manage… based on her magnificent instincts alone (and a little prompting from his own body too, of course).

He pulled out most of the way and let her feel the anticipation before shoving back into her pussy. Lex made sure he didn’t go too fast, but there was a corresponding series of warm compressions inside Chloe. She would probably be sore anyway, but she was enjoying herself. He could read her responses and make her scream. He could take care of her and give her pleasure.

Lex fastened his mouth over hers, driving his tongue wildly against her inexperienced one. Chloe let her hands fall to the bed and held on. She let her body twist and bounce with him as he led her toward orgasm. It was close. She twitched and arched, hauling with her legs around him as he created a void inside her that she’d never known was there, then filled it with his body.

The sex is getting better and more pleasurable by the second. I love it! I loved the way that both Lex and Chloe, once they were over the awkwardness, were able to enjoy the sensations that they got/brought from and to each other. They both have reached a place where they can relax and trust each other. Fantastic!

He enjoyed her shivery aftershocks for a moment, the phantom orgasms dwindling pleasantly on his cock. Lex reached back and brought one of her legs down, the other falling to the bed. He sighed and flexed his sore back. Virgins were stressful and not without terrors for him as well. Chloe was uncommonly sensible and he didn’t expect she’d dissolve into a bimbo after the act. He was more concerned about pulling out before the condom could leak. She was far too smart to miss college because he’d knocked her up.

heh, I enjoyed Lex’s wry observation about how he found virgins to be both stressful as well as terrifying. I’m sure virgins all over would have a field-day with that interesting factoid, eh? LOL! But I can imagine it… Lex has an innately old-fashioned chivalrous nature and he wouldn’t enjoy the idea of dominating and hurting ‘innocent maidens’, not even for the thrill of ‘conquering new territory’. There’s too much of a possibility of him loathing himself for feeling like a corrupting monster.

So it was highly gratifying to see that Lex was willing to put aside his hesitations regarding virgins when it came to Chloe… because he couldn’t resist her, no matter how ‘off-limits’ a person like her would normally be.

In the bathroom, he ran water to warm and studied the gleam of Chloe’s juices on his fingertips. He should have gone down on her. She would have loved it, if the orgasm she had from fucking was any indication. It would have made her more comfortable for penetration. If he hadn’t been so angry and hurried, he would have insisted.

heee! Just because Lex considers Chloe to be stronger and smarter than the average virgin doesn’t mean he gets off completely scot-free from the self-loathing of being the ‘monster that corrupted the fair maiden’. It’s always fun to see Lex indulging in a bit of a guilt-trip… especially since I’m pretty sure that the guilt-trip wasn’t completely undeserved considering that Lex honestly DID end up going a little too fast with Chloe just now. His performance might have been excusable (even commendable) for most men, but he’s Lex friggen Luthor… and he’s supposed to be amazingly skilled in bed! Not providing oral sex to Chloe on her first ride… definitely inexcusable performance standards for him!

“I shouldn’t have taken you to see a dead body. It was manipulative and unnecessary. You’re not stupid and you know my father is dangerous,” Lex said. “I had this nagging feeling you were holding back, and I wanted you to trust me.”

awwww. An orgasm followed by an apology AND cuddles?!? All is forgiven!!!!! I was so glad to see Chloe made it clear that she was quite happy and satisfied with how this evening turned out, no matter how awkwardly it started.

Chloe’s head tilted on the pillow, and she stroked her chin. “Hmmm, I don’t think so. Unless I did it completely wrong and you need to explain how it actually goes in my nostril or something, I think we’d only get into awkwardness.”

ROTFLMAO! Oh, the snark! The snark!!! Damn, I didn’t realize how much I missed it until it re-appeared over here.

“You’re a nice guy to lose your virginity to, Lex.”

“That’s nice of you to say, but I’ll refrain from having t-shirts made up to that effect. My reputation is bad enough without literally advising people to lock up their daughters,” he quipped.

ROTFLMAO! How much do you want to bet that Chloe is going to be printing a T-shirt exactly to that effect and stuffing it into Lex’s suitcase every opportunity she gets from now on! And he’d secretly love it… possibly even try it on in the privacy of his bathroom! Not that he’s ever, EVER admit to that!

They stayed for a while longer, Chloe lying soft in his arms and he trying to convince himself saving her life was no more vital than it had been before. There was a tension coiling alongside the pride in her trust; strands the colour of golden hair nearing breaking.

*happy sigh* perfection. It ends on a post-coital near-epiphany of love. Beautiful and perfect ending to an amazing fic. I don’t know how you managed to carry the fic from harsh, violent smut to something sweet, romantic and beautiful… and all within 4,000 words? Now that is truly awe-inspiring!

Any more fics being posted up soon? Pretty please?

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I only just noticed your signature, Nonky ROTFLMAO! I had completely forgotten I said that... but I still firmly stand by my statement

[alexiel]

I really like this fic !

[starmoon]

the story was interesting and a more real way for chloe to lose her virginity.

[Starangel148]

Great story! Lex and Chloe's (especially Chloe's) first time was wonderfully awkward and brutal. This way was a lot better than Chloe and Jimmy's first time against a copy machine. (ugh! *rolls eyes*)

[Rachet]

very realistic

[tatie87]

This was so gritty, real, and perfect. Chloe and Lex just exploding in their lust. I really sort of liked the harsh yet softness of Chloe loosing her virginity to Lex. God I wish you write more, about the aftermath. Great writing!!!

[Gaia]

Very well written. loosing a virginity is never easy and this just shows it. Very nice indeed

[crazychlexer]

loving it!!!!!!!!more please!